I’m Baaaack!!!

Though it would better to wonder if I ever left. Yes I have been silent, but a lot has happened in the last two years and it’s been far too long of a break!. So here is a break down.

So this all kinda started 3 years ago when my boyfriend became my fiance. Yes, he asked me to marry him and of course I said yes. That was in Oct of 2021. Because he lived in Massachusetts I started to make plans to move there. We contacted a lawyer to discuss me immigrating. He would have made less money here had he decided to move to Canada.

Back to the story. I had everything packed and ready by the middle of August. Some things were shipped right away, others held back for a trip by car we would have taken at a later date. We had a ‘wedding’ minus the legality, for my family. I had a wedding dress and got ready at my parent’s house, then went to my sister’s place where we were doing this ceremony. It wasn’t a legal ceremony, but something for my family and close friends to attend. We were going to have the legal ceremony at a park in under a big ole oak tree by the ocean. The area is beautiful. It has a rose garden near by where many people have had their weddings. I just wanted it under an oak tree.

Well I arrived there late night on Aug 27th, 2022. And things were going good. We had things worked out. Since I couldn’t work I would do the house work and I was looking forward to it. It was something I could do to help him while he worked. He even rearranged his schedule for me when he asked if I minded that he work an over night shift. My answer was that I would prefer not, and he changed his shift.. for me.

On Sept 17 he had a massive heart attack. We said goodbye on Sept 26 at 1:30 pm. 2 days after we were supposed to be married. The funeral was on Oct 1, 2022. And 8 days later I was back in Canada. All my stuff was sent back as well.

The next 6 months wasn’t easy. Losing the love of your life is one of the most difficult things I have ever experienced. I worked through my grief to the point that I could work. I looked and applied for full and parttime jobs, but so far have only managed 1 part time job. Though I inherited a fulltime job that I didn’t get paid for, caring for my aging parents.

This hasn’t been easy. Early in 2023 my Dad started 6 months of being in and out of the hospital. We finally figured out that it was because he had a faulty heart valve. That got replaced in December of 2023. That ended well, and while he still is anemic, the greater problem has been solved.

2024 started out with Dad doing better. Then it was Mom’s turn. She went into the hospital beginning of February, came out knowing that her breast cancer had returned. This time with a vengenance. It had spread. She went on meds for the cancer, did some radiation therapy first though. And it helped. Though the second medication she was on for the cancer was fine at first, then it wasn’t. She was in and out of the hospital. At one point she’d been 2 weeks free of the second medication and was doing so very well. Then towards the end of June she went back on it. Within days she went from really good to really bad. 1 week after renewing that medication she was in the hospital and 2 days later she passed away. Not from the cancer, but from what started as liver failure caused by the medication.

Since then it’s been downsizing dad. My sister has been awesome in that she’s been able to go through the stuff in the house. I tried, but I wasn’t able to do it like her. I know it was hard on her though. And while there were times I wasn’t happy with her, I love her and am grateful for that set of skills that enabled her to do what she did. I’m a good helper, but not a good initator when it comes to the downsizing. So tonight it was done. Well as much as could be done while Dad is still living here. He is on the wait list for a lodge. It should be good for him. But I know it’s hard for him. He’s got dementia so the change is difficult for him. I’m currently living with him still so taking care of him is a fulltime job. It’s hard, but I wouldn’t change it for the world.

So now I am getting ready to start a new chapter. Getting back into Genealogy and other things as well. I’m going to Church again when I can. Usually wednesday nights, sunday mornings when I can too.

A new beginning starts today. Each day, each moment is a fresh beginning!